Elliot Rodger, the 22-year-old man suspected of having killed six people near the University of California, Santa Barbara, before dying of a gunshot to the head, apparently wrote a densely detailed, bone-chillingly bloody manifesto outlining exactly whom he would kill and why — because he believed women hated him.
A Santa Barbara TV station, KEYT, said "an acquaintance" of Rodger's had sent it a 106,000-word document through the postal service in which the author, who identifies himself as Rodger, details his grievances and his gruesome plans.
NBC News hasn't verified its authenticity. Santa Barbara County Sheriff Bill Brown referred to the document several times Saturday as revealing how "severely disturbed" Rodger was, although he did not confirm the document's authenticity.
The novel-length document, titled "My Twisted World: The Story of Elliot Rodger," records every slight, insult and humiliation the writer says he has ever suffered "at the hands of humanity, particularly women." Many of the passages mirror almost word for word the snickering diatribes Rodger posted on YouTube shortly before the rampage.
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"All I ever wanted was to fit in and live a happy life amongst humanity, but I was cast out and rejected, forced to endure an existence of loneliness and insignificance, all because the females of the human species were incapable of seeing the value in me," he says in the manuscript.
"I was cast out ... all because the females of the human species were incapable of seeing the value in me."
In precise detail, the writer specifies how and when he intends to behead his roommates and then kill his stepmother and brother before storming "the hottest sorority of UCSB" with guns blazing and knives flashing.
Three victims were found at Rodger's residence. Two others were women who were shot outside the Alpha Phi sorority house at the university.
The next phase, according to the document, is to be the "massacre" of everyone at a house party," where "I will specifically target the good looking people, and all of the couples."
After running over and shooting as many people as he can as he flees police, the writer plans to display his roommates' heads in public so "everyone will fear me as the powerful god I am."
In the final act of the story, the writer commits suicide by taking tranquilizers and shooting himself in the head with two guns.
Brown said late Saturday that Rodger appeared to have died of a self-inflicted gunshot wound.
The document is even more chilling for its precision and mass of detail. It chronicles seemingly every unpleasant memory in the writer's 22 years — his failed attempts to be accepted as "cool," the time a pretty girl yelled at him when he accidentally bumped into her at a summer camp, the time a "pretty blonde girl" teased him in seventh grade, every episode of intense jealousy of any boy who was able to have sex.
"Reproduction can be accomplished without sex, through artificial insemination. Sex is evil, as it gives too much pleasure to those who don't deserve it," the document declares.
"Sex is evil, as it gives too much pleasure to those who don't deserve it."
The writer's only release was to disappear into marathon sessions playing the massively multiplayer online role-playing game World of Warcraft, which was "the only thing I had left to live for."
"All I ever wanted was to love women, and in turn to be loved by them back," it ends. "Their behavior towards me has only earned my hatred, and rightfully so!
"I am the true victim in all of this. I am the good guy. Humanity struck at me first by condemning me to experience so much suffering. I didn't ask for this. I didn't want this. I didn't start this war. I wasn't the one who struck first. But I will finish it by striking back. I will punish everyone. And it will be beautiful. Finally, at long last, I can show the world my true worth."
First published May 24 2014, 5:27 PM