ASCOLI PICENO, Italy — She became the face of Italy's earthquake: Sister Marjana Lleshi, blood staining her veil as she texted her family and friends in her native Albania that she was alive.
In an interview Thursday at the mother house of her religious order, the 35-year-old nun recounted how she thought she would die when her convent walls collapsed. She texted her friends asking that they pray for her soul, only to be rescued by a man she has called her "angel."
Now safe, Lleshi says she wants nothing more than to go to next week's Rome canonization of Mother Teresa, the ethnical Albanian nun "who gave hope to those who didn't have any."
Lleshi was sleeping in the Don Minozzi convent beside the Church of the Most Holy Crucifix in Amatrice when the quake struck at 3:36 a.m. Wednesday. She had been there, with six other sisters, caring for five elderly women. Her order, the Sisters of the Handmaidens of the Lord, runs nurseries and homes for the aged.
She woke up covered in dust and bleeding. Realizing what had happened, she immediately tried to summon help outside her room.
No one responded. And she couldn't get out.
"When I started losing all hope of being saved, I resigned myself to it and started sending messages to friends saying to pray for me and to pray for my soul and I said goodbye to them forever," she said outside the order's headquarters in Ascoli Piceno.
"I couldn't send a message like this to my family because I was afraid that my father would have an emotional collapse and die hearing something like that."
She said she eventually was rescued by a young man who cared for one of the elderly women at the home. "In that moment, I heard a voice who called me: 'Sister Marjana, Sister Marjana.'"
He pulled her out. With the ground still shaking, she sat down on the side of the road and began texting her friends and sisters that she had survived.
That moment was immortalized in an image taken by a photographer for the ANSA news agency reprinted worldwide.
Lleshi spent much of Thursday getting medical checks for dust inhalation and her head wound, which required stitches. Once back home, she wept as she thought of her family.
She still hopes to travel to Rome for the Sept. 4 canonization of Mother Teresa, the Macedonian-born ethnic Albanian nun who ministered to the poor of India. But the chaos and horror of the moment may be too much. Her order lost three sisters and four of the elderly women they cared for, alongside incalculable losses in the wider community.
"For me she's the symbol of Albania, of a strong woman," she said of Teresa. "I would have liked to go, but after this I don't think I can."
She can relish the simple fact of still being alive.
"I had said 'adieu,'" she said, "and in the end it wasn't an adieu."