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Why I didn't want to be part of 'If I Did It'

Goldmans wanted an ex-FBI profiler to 'break down the language of a sociopathic narcissistic murderer'

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Aug. 1: O.J. Simpson chastises the family of Ron Goldman for trying to profit from his book, originally titled "If I Did It," during an interview.
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Clint Van Zandt

After being acquitted for the 1994 brutal stabbing murder of his former wife Nicole Brown Simpson and her friend Ronald Goldman, O.J. Simpson would tell others that he would spend the rest of his life looking for his ex's killer.  It's now 13 years later and the double murder has still managed to elude the former Buffalo Bills running back.

Many feel that the Simpson murder trial was lost because the prosecution team simply did not present an appropriate case in court.  Others suggest that Simpson's dream team of attorneys was able to turn the murder trial of a celebrity accused of a double homicide into a "get even" trial between the races.  If true, the prosecution's case was doomed from the start. Yet O.J. was subsequently found liable in a wrongful death civil suit, a case that did not break down into a black vs. white issue, and one in which the former football and movie star was found responsible to pay millions of still to date unpaid dollars, to include $33 million to the family of Ron Goldman and $24 million to the family of Nicole Brown. 

O.J. Simpson has remained a magnetic public figure and social icon since the murder of the mother of his two children has not shied away from public attention.  In fact, he has continued to seek it since that night in 1994 when the two murders were committed at Brown-Simpson's residence.  Last year it was announced that O.J., with the aid of a ghost writer, had written a book entitled "If I Did It," one touted to "almost" be a confession on the part of Simpson.  Most saw the writing of this book as an attempt by Simpson to further capitalize on the media attention surrounding the tragic deaths of two people and murders that a significant percent of the population continue to believe were done by O.J.'s own hands.  Simpson's publisher at that time finally caved in to the overwhelming public pressure created by the Brown and Goldman families to kill the book. With that, the book and O.J.'s murder-like biographical seemed to slowly fade away until the Goldman family was awarded the rights to the book by the civil court judge.  Now the Goldman family who will receive 90 percent of any book sales related to "If I Did It," has turned around to champion the publication of it, allegedly wanting to rename it "Confessions of a Double Murderer," or something to that effect.

The book was going to receive a rewrite though, and that's where I came in.  I was contacted by a literary agent representing the Goldman family who inquired if I would write a commentary for the re-issuing of the book "If I Did It," further indicating she and the Goldman family wanted a former FBI profiler to "break down the ‘language' of a ‘sociopathic narcissistic murderer' and provide insight in the way of an essay or chapter that can be included in this reissuance of the book." 

It took me a few minutes to wrap my psychological arms around her proposal.  She was offering me the chance to write an introductory chapter to a book that had the chance to sell millions of copies to readers who just can't get enough of this stuff.  Money and public recognition would surely follow anyone who had the seized the brass ring of telling what most people already believed: that should O.J. Simpson actually committed these murders (as the book would seem to suggest), and that he was "a sociopathic narcissistic murderer."  It took me about two minutes to come to my decision, "No, thank you." 


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